note to incoming self: get IV fluids.

you know how when you are sick for a few days you begin to loose your mental facilities?
and not just your ability TO think but the thoughts that reside in your kepi get kind of dark and lonely?
i had forgotten it is the same with chemotherapy.

so you feel like you are DYING because you kind of are. and there are these wonderful homeopathic mistletoe injections you are doing to boost your immune system and fight cancer and when you reach the correct inoculation point do you know how you can tell?
you get flu symptoms.
which is good.
but oh man does it suck balls. (excuse me).
and if you have already hot flashes and your belly hurts its a little difficult to place it all.

but that is what was happening.
IM ALMOST INOCULATED!

so yesterday jenna suggested and master kim and dr. miller confirmed i could benefit from IV fluids.
AND blessed be the university of michigan was able to accommodate me without struggle.
(remind me to tell you about leaking nephroskpy bags and bullshit! ((excuse me again )).

the difference was palpable.
and i was able to finish in time to go see my girl's gymnastics class!

when betsy and i walked in the door and i spotted her in her piggies and her pink and purple one-piece with little shorts unitard i went up real close and she turned into a barnacle and squeaked, 'mommie mommie mommie mommie!'
she hardly ever calls me mommie. i could feel her little body buzzing.

some photos of her so you can see how she glows:
in devotion,
caryn.

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at the a2 skatepark with her papa.                                                          up north with bubbe, saba, auntie b and dan.                                                                                                 

  

at the aviary in grand rapids with grandma and grandpa and auntie sarah and cousin augie.
sarah told me h said:
'auntie sarah they are hurting me but its okay!'
so hazel.



last night listening to george michael and queen with levi before they went to bed.