i've been coming up blanks.
feeling isolated and pretty glum.
like I'm waiting for cancer to be over so i can do the next thing.
though I've been advised and am working on implementing not that.
never in my healthy robust existence would i have thought id be going through cancer
for the second time at age 39. chemo #6 is really chemo #12.
one more round of the red death devil and then a scan.
i'm just starting to peek round the wall at what comes next as i get closer.
i don't really want to think about whats next.
that does not really help me much.
im stoping quick here.
sharing the positive strengths are easier that the contemplations and pains.
this time around at least.
dr. up pal thinks the nodes probably are not cancerous.
based on my CA125.
yet he did have a lot to say about TIDY NEST prenatal organization.
thank you to everyone who is coming/came through to keep h and i company this week
and feed us with kindness inside food.
my hair is coming back in. its the most tender sweet soft feeling.
my hand it always there.
goodnight.
