the day after.

i took myself out to the garden today. i used to pull many little weeds that i leave to sit now. like yellow dock and evening prim. chickweed and wild berry to transplant. time to care for myself when i dawn (oh) that is way i have been unable to breathe. only certain things really matter. master kim says for me those two are 1. my health 2. relationship. i think I'm still in the initial shock from the mammogram callback. i visualize the gash in my breast. there is no cancer inside. thank the goddess.

waiting 1 day.

writing has been hard.

i think about it.

i dont do it.

i decided on the surgical biopsy,

and had that yesterday.

the results should be back tomorrow.

it has to be nothing.

it just has to be.