by not writing.

i avoided the roller coaster of emotions experienced between then and now.

everything i had pushed down emotionally to function on all realms
started to seep up after i was called cancer free.
dr lu, my savior in words, told me most people going through remission get depressed.
i was not alone, but i was scared for obvious reasons.
he needs me to keep pushing forward and get well he says.
now is not the time to process old wounds.
okay.
so i am doing that working now.

AND
hazel and i are headed off to the lama foundation in northern new mexico tomorrow morning!
we will take the train through chicago and end up in lamy nm sunday at 2:30.
spend some time with new friends from last summer in pilar for a few days
and then head up the mountain in time for shabbat on friday night.

we will be away from michigan for 2 to 3 weeks, depending how i do with my strength.
friends on the mountain have already volunteered to help out with hazel.

hazel will turn 3 on the mountain!
we will probably spend a good part of the afternoon running around in circles inside the dome
as we did last year for her 2nd birthday.

we will be out of e-mail contact
but will be able to check messages and texts by phone.

yey! we are so excited!
i love to share this place with my daughter.
it is the blessing i get at this time,
i will take it.

c.